Tuesday, September 14, 2010

It has been a long time

Hello blog world, I know it has been a long time since I posted something here, life has been a bit crazy, but I have good news. I started my medical assistant school which has been keeping me pretty busy but I am loving it. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed about the amount of information and test every week, but I guess I will get used to it, specially because it is only 9 months course.
I am attending PIMA Medical Institute.

The Course include medical terminology, office management, medical law & ethics, medical insurance, medical office laboratory procedures, nursing and surgical procedures as well as examination techniques.
Just can't wait to graduate and hopefully get a good job.

Friday, May 21, 2010

3 months since the diagnose (surgery)

Hey girls, just feeling like writing a little post here. 3 months ago I was at the operating room, after they gave me the anesthesia and told me that, that would feel like I had a lot of wine (which totally did, was the best part of the process...lol) I passed out. Woke up a couple hours later just to find out that everything was done. At the time I though that I was going to be okay after going through a 3 hour procedure and having my uterus opened like it was nothing. I sure was wrong.
Today I realize that, that was just the beginning of the fight, or I should say war. 3 months after the surgery, and I am still having huge cramps, not as bad as was before but still bad, I am still unable to have intercourse without pain, and now I developed some kind of bladder issues, which is funny cause when I went back to my doctor she told me that I might have something called Interstitial Cystitis, but I've never had bladder problems before, I don't want to think that it is related to the surgery itself, but it kinda feels like it is. I am making a couple changes on my diet, little by little. It is frustrated that whole sugar free, wheat free, dairy free and alcohol free diet. Not sure if I will be able to risk those things out of my life, but I will try to reduce.
I am still trying to find energy to think positive and keep my chin up, but there are days that I just want to give up. Having my whole family in Brazil makes things harder, yes it does. With all of this I am feeling so homesick. I have my husband which he makes me happy most of at the time, being supportive and understanding but at other times I am sure that he is tired of dealing with this. My hormones are up and down, sometimes I cry for no reason, I feel hopeless, worthless, and all the less stuff. I know I need to be strong (at least I keep telling this to myself) but it is hard. I really feel that some of my friends do not understand what's going on, and of course they don't, for people in general it is like: "she had a surgery, so she should be okay, maybe she likes attention". But we know, it is not that simple. Having a chronic disease is so debilitating, that's why I really want to let people know about it and inform themselves, maybe help some young girl that has being dealing with endometriosis without knowing.
Anyway, this was supposed to be just a short post, sorry I got carried away. Wishing you all the best, and let's not give up. We have each other. (talking about the girls at www.weareendo.org)


Monday, May 17, 2010

LOOKBOOK.nu: "a warm day" by Valeria Tennyson

LOOKBOOK.nu: "a warm day" by Valeria Tennyson: "H&M Jeans Skirt, H&M Tank Top"

minhas melissas. love it!

An awesome weekend in Port Townsend!

Hubby and I left home around 1pm on the past Friday to spend the weekend in PT for Rhody festival and his high school reunion. The weekend was perfect, everybody was getting drunk but since I couldn't do it, I only had 2 glasses of wine and was fine. Was great to hang out with old friends and to meet new ones. Sometimes we just need a weekend getaway to forget about the problems, relax and have a good time, and we did that. These pictures I took when we were at the ferry in Edmonds on a pretty sunny day!

Saturday, May 8, 2010

summer dress

My mom gave me this dress the day I leff Brazil, never had a chance to use it, maybe because the weather in Seattle doesn't help. But yesterday was a somewhat warmer day, so I figured to try it on and I love it.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

thanks mom!

trying to make outfits with the clothes that I already have

difficult times.

Times are difficult, without a job we can't do much. I noticed that my old friends are going out without asking if I'd like to join them, that made me feel really upset but I will survive. I am searching for jobs and I am sure that soon enough I will be making some money to help out my husband pay the bills and so I can go shopping as well...haha
At least I am feeling a lot better since I started the physical therapy post surgery. I can feel some improvement in the pain, and finally I am starting to get out of the house, I don't know why but for some reason I got so used to be at home, I was feeling like it was my safe place. I think that was normal, I spent 2 months mostly at home, because I was in pain, recovering and no money. But I am sure that my life will soon be back on track and a job should be on its way.
Today I went to the mall trying to find a gift to send to my mom and my mother-in-law, ended up coming home with empty hands, I will try a different mall tomorrow, and hopefully I will find something. It was hard to walk in those stores knowing that I couldn't buy anything for me. Oh well, tough it up. This is what I was wearing today. Talk to you guys soon :-)

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

cute look!

thinking of fashion

Hi everyone, this week I decided to learn more about fashion, which it is kinda funny because when I was growing up I was pretty much a tomboy, always playing soccer and rollerblading, but now I am interested in learning about fashion and make up, specially cause it will be good to take my mind away from the surgery that I am still recovering from. Some pictures following up soon :-)

Friday, April 23, 2010

long time...

I know it has been a long time since I posted an entry here, but my life hasn't been that great. 2 months after having my surgery I still feel pain, and now I am experiencing bladder issues, which will lead me to some sessions of physical therapy, which I really hope that will help me. I am struggling about the fact that I still don't have a job. I have been sending lots of resumes but till now, nothing. But I gotta be positive and believe that things happens for a reason, and that maybe I am still unemployed because I am healing, so be patient girl.
Other than that things are great, I have an awesome husband that supports me and encourages me to be strong and he is always by my side trying to cheer me up and making me laugh, I am so lucky to have him in my life. I am excited about meeting up with an adviser, hopefully I will be able to go back to school for another degree or just for a certificate, either way I will be happier to be engaged in learning something new in order to get a good job.
Don't know if anybody reads this, but if there is anybody out there I'd like to say "BE STRONG", life can be frustrated sometimes but it is for a reason, and never let anything take away your smile, because everything changes and nothing is permanent. So smile and lets get going.


Monday, March 8, 2010

Surgery day! Feb 20th 2010

Woke up early in the morning, if I could say that I have got any sleep the night before. I had to do a bowel preparation around noon which was one of the most awful things that I've ever been through. The hardest part was to drink the whole bottle of magnesium citrate, and a little after that I was going to the bathroom non-stop, totally frustrated, but I had to do in case the doctor happen to find some endometriosis on my bowel.
We had to drive about 1 hour to get to the hospital, since the doctor that I chose performs the surgery in Tacoma, I had chosen her based on a friend experience, and since she is an specialist that made me really happy.
Got there, I had to change my clothes to that blue thing that shows your butt, what could I do. I've never had gone through any surgery before, so I have to tell you I was freaking out.
The staff was really good, very friendly and professional. They got me a blanket and in bed I was just waiting for them to come pick me up after having to answer to so many questions about my healthy. The anesthesiologist came in and gave me a little something to calm me down, the doctor showed up to say hi and to talk to my husband, and then was time for me to go. I said bye to my hubby in tears of course, my nephew and cousin was there I gave each one a kiss and a hug and they took me to the operating room. When I got there they gave me the anesthesia and I was out.
The procedure took almost 3 hours, as I had a lot of endometriosis and also 2 fibroid s on my uterus. When I came back I was at the recovering room, feeling dizzy and weird but other than that I was okay. I was happy to be back to the world. They took me to the room where I could see my family. The doctor showed up to talk to me and to give me the pics from the surgery. She told me that I should try to empty my bladder to make sure it was functioning alright. Off to the bathroom I went, Aline helped me out. I was able to pee, and when O got back to the room they told me that that was really good and if I was hungry. I was so happy that I was going to be able to eat after having only liquids the day before and nothing after midnight, it was already 3pm. I ordered my meal and ate really well, they were all happy to see me like that and after some tests they sent me home.
The ride back home was really painful and so was to get in and out of the car. Got home and went straight to bed. Because of the drugs was not hard to fall sleep, the difficult part was to find a better position that wouldn't hurt me. Had to got up a couple times to pee through the night, I was lucky to have my husband there to help me out.

Back to Seattle

Left Sao Paulo on Jan 25th, which was the B-day of the city 356 years old. Glad that I got to do a couple things with my brother and Marcela, also was able to see one of my friends. I was excited to see some old friends, that I didn't get the chance to see the on the past visit a year ago.
Everything went well on the airport and arriving in the US. We almost missed the flight in Dallas as we had to go through security again and the customs. We were the last ones to arrive in the plane.
Not our fault.
We got in Seattle and It was cold, I felt a bit different arriving here after spending a whole month in my beloved country, with all the sun, the beaches, the fruits, the food, the family and friends. I kinda felt out of place, but I was really happy to see my husband after so long. Wish I could stay in his arms for a while when we saw each other, but at the same time we were hungry and tired from the 18 hours flight.
Got home fill the air mattress with air, and tried to unpack my luggage. Was happy to see my cat as well, as missing her a lot.
They stayed here for 3 weeks, and we didn't stop a single day. Lots of trips to the mall, as they were planning about buying a couple things to take back home. We did a lot of tourist things, so they could either fall in love or hate Seattle, the first one happened :-)
I took both of them to Forks, so they could see some parts of the town where twilight was filmed, I think they enjoyed. We also went to Mount Baker to snowboard for the 1st time, was a great and at the same time frustrated experience, at least for me, since I was getting up only to fall the next moment while trying to stand on the board.
They ate at some fast food places, cause I thought they should try as we don't have that many in Brazil.
I think they got tired of sandwiches...lol
Lucas had a Starbucks coffee almost every day, as here we have one in almost every corner. They were able to spend Dan's B-day here, we went to game crazy and to a brewery to have lunch. Was an interesting day as Dan as always got a little drunk.
I am pretty sure they had a great time here, the only bad part of their trip was that they had to spend the day at the hospital because my surgery was scheduled for the 19th of February, and they were going to leave to Brazil on the next morning. Luckily the surgery went well, but I was upset that I wasn't able to drive them to the airport next morning. I was happy that Bob was able to take them to the airport. They got in Brazil safely and the flight was on time.
Yeah, that sure made my day!
Missing Lucas already.

Leaving Brazil

wow, 1 month went by so fast, of course I did a lot of things, saw a lot of my friends but at the same time it feels like it was gone pretty fast. It will be hard to leave them again, but I am happy that at least Lucas and Aline will be going to Seattle with me to spend 3 weeks.
Was really hard to say goodbye to my mom, but I think I am get used to, at least I know that soon I will be back. At least I hope so.
I am happy because I had the time to spend and enjoy my family, specially my mom, and I am happy because while I was here her diabetes was controlled and we could do lots of things together without me being worried about her having a lower blood sugar experience, as I was used to see.
I was able to go see my best friend Roberta, and take my family with me, it was a perfect weekend at Lagoa do Taquaral.
I didn't do lots of tourist things this time, but at least I did what I had planned to do.
OH Sabrina, it was amazing to see how much she had change, she is my little princess. We had a great time together.
Going to miss all of them, but I will be back soon.
Love you guys