Sunday, February 20, 2011

1 year since my laparoscopy surgery

Isn't amazing how time flies? 1 year ago I was freaking out because of my surgery but I also had the hope that the surgery itself would help me to deal with the endometriosis, or even better, cure me. How silly I was. At the time I didn't know much about it and I thought that would give me a lot of relief.
Honestly I did get some relief but it lasted for only a couple months. The pain has come back terribly, just like how it was before. I've been having to take some strong painkillers, using my heating pad constantly, having to leave school earlier in the days that is hard to cope with the pain. So, I try to enjoy as much as I can the days that it doesn't hurt. I don't know about you guys but when I went to Tampa, FL in November I had a good relief from the pain, it was warm there and sunny and that definitely helped me a lot, but back in Seattle, WA things got worse again. It might be just me but I really think that the weather helps or worsens the condition.
Of course, it is always gloomy, cloud, cold and raining in here so I feel worse.
One thing that has been upsetting me a lot is that now I've been having a sharp pain during orgasms, so It is hard to relax during play time. I get so tense that I don't even enjoy sex that much anymore and it sucks. I have a very supportive husband but I am sure that this disease is hard on him as well.
All I know is that I will keep my hope alive and wait for the cure, but for the time being I will try as much as I can to provide awareness about this disease.
Going to bed now....Will probably have to take some advil pm in order to sleep since I am having my period and the cramps are killing me.